Journal excerpt of a damaged girl*

"I hate to start out my new journal like this, but things aren't well. I never wanted things to get so nasty between he and I, but they have.  I have become the asshole in my relationship with him.  It's very unfortunate for all of us and unlikely that the friendship can or will remain intact.  I am being backed into a corner and I am going to have to strike.  Once they are gone and my life can return to the one that, might not be my first choice, but is familiar and comfortable: I think a lot of things will start falling back into place. I knew I should have never let myself "go there", but I gave it another chance and it's just not for me.  I think my health will improve, my dogs' behavior will improve, my general attitude will improve and my stress level will be almost non-existent.  In the end it will be  better for everyone.  He would have never accepted me for who I am and would have never stopped trying to change me.  I can't be held down or back by a man anymore.  All they ever do is rob me of my joy and make promises they can't or wont keep. Here forward I can just keep it simple. Goodnight <3, me"