Hard Knocks*

I just want to know why it's always the woman who feels like she has been sliced open and had her heart pried out when a break up occurs? Why do we get to be so strong in every way except when it comes to matters of the heart? I keep trying to reconcile everything that happened. How did we go from friends to lovers to IN LOVE to we want to be a family and we both just f'in gave up on each other? How and why does this happen? And why is it always me who feels the need to rationalize, stop the clock, cease to function for putting the needs of my partner in front of mine and getting no recognition from it? I don't care what OTHER people think, I care what he thinks. What it all boils down to is he didn't love me as much as I loved him. I was convenient but when push came to shove, I no longer matter. Peace out.